weak. i was thinking about this just then, maybe because I'm noticing a lot of problems that have come up recently, namely teeth and eye problems. The dentist says I might need a gum grafting, like removing gum from other parts of my mouth to place it in areas where there is not enough. crazy Also, I was stupid enough to use fat floss to floss between my retaining wire. And as a result part of the wire came off. And as a result my teeth are slowly becoming CROOKED. CROOKED. It's like my middle school nightmares are all coming back. I was a freakin MONSTER back then. my teeth were ALL ups and downs like animals on a carousel. must buy... solution. retainer. erugkh. And I am in need of more contact lenses cause I only have one pair left. 2 weeks of glam and that's it. The pair of glasses I have are back from the 8th grade. It's Disney and they're round small and maroon. I'm thinking of maybe investing in frames that I actually like so I can save money from rebuying lenses all the time. Also I have noticed that the inside of my left eye is permenantly red, since last April. And another thing that is not related to features on my face is the car. that wouldn't start when I turned the key. It worked fine this morning and I did not leave the headlights on or anything silly like that. I am not skilled in car solutions and sadly I don't think i have the capacity to retain the information. So we might just have to be ripped off by our dealer or some other car solver. and yet another I will not go into details with. A lot of money goes into solving these little problems that bug the hellmell out of me. Did it bug the hell outta people back in the day? or was it not such a big deal. Yes. I started thinking about these little things.. and then bigger things and then bigger bigger things. like electric bills, water heater bills, mortgage, loans, mattresses, stocks, lotion for people with psoriasis, medical bills, plastic surgery, bills, more bills, presents and effing TAXES. oh and including the aforementioned things that were bugging me. I'm amazed at how we are able to keep up with all these expenses with a paycheck and maybe the aid of spouse or etc. in my mind, that adds up to a ridiculous amount of money. could also be that I am frugal to a fault and do not spend a whole lot and it could also be financial anxiety. But goodness, for the things that I just have to fix, like my eyes (curse the existence of near sightedness and other faulty eye things) and my teeth and the car. makes me wish that i had less things in life that I just feeeeeel I have to fix. If it these were not fixed, I don't think I could go on, SADLY. To sum it all up, think of all the money we would save if someone was blessed in everything. like fixing car problems, or having perfect genetics, or amazing self esteem. gosh if your world were that bizarre. it'd be a dream! or maybe simpler times when people would have bad hygiene, habits, and bad everything and accepted that dying in your 30s was normal. pathetic, frayed sum up. i wish i were a wolverine instead. they don't seem to have any problems. they just eat and play in their isolated regions. and they loathe money, they want nothing to do with it. | 
